I’ve deleted, contemplated and back spaced so many words and thoughts as I sit here and type. Some know my story, others may have a hint. The road to freedom has been a long one, with lots of bumps, hills and mountains across the path.
As I sat on our couch, writing, I realized that God has been doing something amazing in me, and it’s been slowly blooming for the past 6 plus years. Months of counseling, years of boundary setting, and sitting before the throne, crying my heart out to the Father. It’s taken awhile for me to see it in its reality.
As I sit on our couch, I feel my heart blooming, beating, brave. As I sit on our couch and write, I realize how far He has taken me. As my mother in law has stated about portions of her journey, the caterpillar is turning into a beautiful butterfly. This butterfly 🦋 is growing her wings and learning to soar with wisdom, love and compassion and bravery. I no longer have to be afraid.
As I sit on our couch, I realize that my heart isn’t angry, bitter, or afraid. Instead, it’s slowly willing to open up and be loved and loving. As I have allowed my heart, soul and spirit to heal from the past, I can finally remember some of the good things without the anger and bitterness.
As my physical body undergoes its own transformations, my spiritual life is changing, and my heart and mind are following suit.
I’m walking in joy, peace, love and a willingness to open my heart once again. For years it had been closed off due to the pain, bitterness and anger of the past. I can’t change what has been done, but I can change my heart and the very essence of our family tree.
For those of you who have been on the journey with me for all of these years, thank you for the prayers and support. For those who have come alongside me for various seasons, thank you for listening, teaching and watering into those moments. For those of you who have allowed me to speak my story, thank you for your love, support and your willingness to allow me to share the pain.
For those who get to hear of His freedom in my life, I pray that the same power and love wraps His arms around you to break every chain of your past. He did it with me. He can certainly do it with you.
To freedom, love and soaring into a new season.
To my handsome man, the one He promised me would help take those final steps of healing.
He’s not through with me yet. ❤️🦋❤️