I’m sitting here, huddled in what amounts to a ball, praying that this reaction is over soon. In general, it could be 6 hours, to over 24 hours. We never know. All we can do is pray that it’s over as quickly as possible, in between taking massive amounts of probiotics and drinking tons of water and using essential oils to dull the pain as much as possible.
I guess I should backtrack. Eric has been cooking breakfast for us most mornings, allowing my body to rest and recuperate as much as possible. I love his heart for me! 😍. Sometimes, we both forget that I can’t eat certain foods he has no problem with. I forget because it’s still kinda new to both of us. Today was one of those kinds of days.
No amount of essential oils can “cure”. Peppermint helps relieve the pain to make it a bit more manageable and not as debilitating as it was in the beginning. As I huddle near the toilet, nauseous and in pain, it’s moments and days like this that I get upset. With myself, with God, with life. It’s been a crazy journey, filled with good and bad. One bite can literally set me back for WEEKS, dealing with massive amounts of inflammation, joint pain, migraines, diarrhea and vomiting just to name a few.
As angry as I get at times, I have been drawing closer to Him. I don’t always have the answers to everything. As much times as I ask Him why me, I go back to the scripture that states how it rains on the just & unjust. And that He is my Healer in all things.
Eric and I have been holding pretty tight to those truths. The last doctor appointment had my kidney function going down, with no explanation from the doctors except that they think it’s tied to the other issues. So here we sit, praying, believing, interceding.
Hoping that the overhaul in our diet and nutrition is enough to begin the healing in my body. The “gentle” workouts to help jumpstart a body that desperately needs to lose the weight to help it survive and fight.
I hate the decisions I have made in the past, but am now looking forward to the future. His cleansing, His healing, and knowing that no matter what happens, He is the King, and I am His daughter.
So I say, here I am Lord. Use me however you want. I’m still going to hang on to my faith, my hope and my belief that no matter what, YOU are good, and You love me. ❤️