As I’m sitting here, listening to the boom of the thunder and lightning, I’ve been in reflection mode. It’s been 30 days since the official diagnosis…30 days of meds, lifestyle changes, diet changes and in general a topsy turvy rollercoaster ride.
It’s weird to think that just a month ago, so many of my days were spent eating junk and chugging loads of caffeine in various forms. Now, it’s been a journey to health one bite and step at a time. My body is learning to react to the meds and I’m learning what could harm or help it along.
I’m also learning that I am starting to look different. My body is dropping the pounds/inches, and I didn’t really believe/see it until this weekend.
I had an opportunity to model a few things for my mother in law’s launch party of Lularoe (Here’s the Facebook group). As one customer was asking questions on certain items, we realized that we were similar sizes. I started trying things on for her and had a blast. (She was buying online and Mom was taking pictures as we went and sending them to her.)
Afterwards, we get back to our room and I finally have a chance to look at the pictures that hubby took of me. That’s when it hit me… that slimmer face in the mirror, with an actual waist, that’s me! That person in the picture that felt so crappy and was in tears because of how sick and tired she was, the one who is smiling ear to ear, that’s me! That beautiful person in the dress that’s an XL, that’s most definitely me.
When I look at those pictures, my brain and heart match up. I see someone wonderful and amazing. I’m joyful and playful and back to my “normal” self. That’s also when I realized that all of the changes we have made, are so totally worth it. The kitchen overhaul of food, pantry and everything in between has been worth it despite the struggles and stress we’ve had trying to figure this new life out. It’s been worth not being huddled in pain, always tired, always sick and mostly in tears that we couldn’t figure out what was wrong.
So, yeah, this is me. This is our new life, a life we hope and pray doesn’t always include medication or scary medical diagnosis, but instead has freedom, healing, faith and beauty. Pray for us as we continue this journey and learn even more about the love our Father has for us along the way, but also as we trust in Him with our entire lives and habits. 💕
Here’s a few pictures of last night. We’re about to have a fun photo shoot depending on the weather later on this morning!